Puzzle Pieces

I've been living in a fairytale, I just hope it's happily ever after

Life lately been a carousel, and every trip keeps on getting faster

I flip a coin into a wishing well, a penny for my thoughts I wish I could master

And if I don't, then I'ma give them hell, and if I don't, then I'ma give them hell

I was shaped by traumas from times I lived on Woodbine

My mom would go to jail for fighting or leave us for days for guys

I never felt I was enough, even blamed myself for dad dying

I would cry at times because I had no father by my side

And now not much has changed, but now I'm big enough to carry weight

And too big for my step dad to beat on my mom in front of me

I swore I wouldn't touch a woman after seeing her suffer

Do I forgive the dude or every time I see him, it's fuck him

I watched him try to hang my brothers from the shower with a belt

Now no amount of alcohol or drugs can bury how I felt

I saw him recently and snapped, grabbed him by the throat in fact

And said I wasn't seven anymore, my uncle held me back

He told me that it wasn't worth it, let it go, no one's perfect

He's got demons of his own, but does he really deserve them

I got to thinking how he came up, he probably seen the same stuff

Take a look around the house, we are what we hang up

I've been living in a fairytale, I just hope it's happily ever after

Life lately been a carousel, and every trip keeps on getting faster

I flip a coin into a wishing well, a penny for my thoughts I wish I could master

And if I don't, then I'ma give them hell, and if I don't, then I'ma give them hell

I was shaped by traumas from times when I was in Brownsville

Left alone in houses with my brothers no adults for hours

At that moment, I became a flower, risen by the higher power

Gorgeous from outside, but look inside, the roots are sour

I was forced to blooming prematurely, robbed of petals insecurely

Guess we're all just kids inside and we were forced to grow up early

Pieces from my past been coming to me, they're like puzzle pieces

I've been piecing them together finding peace becoming me

And it's because of me, I'm learning to forgive me

I need patience with myself 'cause I'm still learning on this journey

Not my fault I never had a model love that's why I'm flirty

I'm still learning how to love myself and fuck, I'm almost thirty

I've been reflecting, dissecting every section

Of my life, I hope my future wife accepting

'Cause I ain't normal, known to run to lessen

The blow if you leave when I feel abandoned

I've been living in a fairytale, I just hope it's happily ever after

Life lately been a carousel, and every trip keeps on getting faster

I flip a coin into a wishing well, a penny for my thoughts I wish I could master

And if I don't, then I'ma give them hell, and if I don't, then I'ma give them hell