Already running out of breath
Let's keep up these talks about death
Those mass numbers still fresh
Niggas be tearing others' flesh
Strike me a cadence, no butchering
I ain't the one to be ushering
I be running and running with a bunch of nothing
Cause I'm juggling all the things I need to be recovering
And yea I be struggling but you ain't meant to know that now
I know there's too much I allow
This ain't the first and last time I drown
Who will the one to hold me down?
I ain't just thinking about that gown
Maybe I shouldn't stay in this town
Spend everything that binds me
This world ain't how it seemed to be
Only getting seconds of peace
Our family already broken this don't bring us ease
Just ask the troubled ones in the Middle East
Sneaky pigs always in the scene
They think they trying to clean the streets
Make it all white, they don't like when it's dark
They rather make us embark
All the screams lost they meaning, to them it's just bark
To this day, I still pray, give it a few more years
There's many like him he ain't even the worst
It's making me sick, that he will stay at work
And everything he wants he gets, that's for sure
Cause everything for him just works
I can't fucking understand how, it just hurts
It's always about looks you don't know
Sorry to say but not all of us are slow
And one day we won't watch that hunger grow
Rest ain't ever been easy
Rest ain't ever
Rest ain't ever been this easy
Rest ain't been this easy
I've been taking this new but common hike nervously
Can't even bother to put anybody on
Ain't shit change but the factors
I'm growing up all the same, still lost
Still familiar with the loss
Still grasping the idea of a casualty
So casually living while you I'm missing
And I for one still reminiscing
Of before I really started drifting
I tread this abrasive route
Carrying this invasive sickness
Can't erase my wickedness
I refuse to grow malicious
Shivering from my fighting lividness
In this room I can't see what glimmers
I work to shimmer when I wake up and look in the mirror
But what's the reason?
I rebuke this pervasive temptation
I'm wasting myself
I'm not built to be saving myself
I put the pain away, ain't worth the grave for this wealth
Nearly vented about a thought that would've lost your respect
Nearly tempted to sell my mind and lungs for that pretty face in a sec
That's a big embarrassment
Still letting in malevolence
Fogging intelligence
Losing relevance
Still making little sense
Bled and rested, still brittle I guess
Still see the little that is left
I refuse to have wept
Had my seconds of peace that was during a war
Right now is just the absence of both
Bodies of myself rested up on shore
Don't mistake this for me being who I loathe
I had the thought, never the signs that were never shown
I'm still here, I'll always be here, you won't