SEARCHING

Searching for direction

When I wake up in the morning, I go pray and I seek

Can't afford to let nobody play with my peace

When my life get on a roll, I end up breaking the streak

And I'm afraid of getting too old for facing my peak

Every birthday make me feel like life been moving too fast

Feel like I just turned 30, now that's deep in the past

If life a highway, feel like I'm doing the dash

When I ain't living God way, what I'm go do when I crash

Isolated from family, I be too out of touch

Me and my daddy on good terms, but we ain't talking that much

He the only one I know, that's why I show him respect

I wanna call that man right now, but something holding me back

I got four that's calling me dad and I'm doing my best

Every week I'm up another bag, I told them they blessed

Man, some say I'm too hard on them, some say I'm correct

But I can't let the devil fall on them, I

Stay on they neck

I don't ask for much cause I got issues with rejection

Don't repent enough, I be hoping I'm still protected

I been in a war today with all my imperfections

In the darkest place searching for an exit

I'm searching for direction

I'm searching for direction

I'm searching for direction every time I see myself in the mirror

All this guilt within my vision, so it ain't getting clearer

Doing everything God hate, don't even act like I fear him

On the outside I'm straight, but it don't match the interior

Thought I figured out the play, but still can't even obey

Thought I figured out the way, yet I been sitting in place

Thought I had a record label, think I went the wrong way

Seem like everything more stable when I do my own thing

When I watch my brother path, it remind me of why I changed

I got my father's habits combined with my mother's ways

I can't blame my father actions for anything causing pain

I done found the narrow path, but it feel like I'm still in chains

In the vehicle of righteousness, moving until I wrecked it

I knew all the laws to abide to, but I left it