House Of Cards

I know you really can't see but

This grief is tearing through me

It's left me like a house of cards

One breath you're gone

Man it still seems so surreal that you have gone away

It sounds cliche but I still think about you everyday

See you in my dreams and pictures on the fireplace

See you in the mirror's reflection, resemble my own face

When we was kids you used to tell me "never back down"

So how did you give up on everything, hit rock bottom

Toward the end we hardly spoke, we never talked too often

You were too blind to see that pills were causing all your problems

Looking back at everything, sometimes I blame myself

I could've tried to do something to try to get you help

You kept on hiding, denying, lying to your own self

That you were playing with fire, declining your own health

Then the phone call from Hell that I remember well

Almost 5 AM, hearing our parents scream and yell

They were so incoherent with grief I could hardly tell

Then I finally understood that this was farewell

I know you really can't see but

This grief is tearing through me

It's left me like a house of cards

One breath you're gone

I can't move on

I used to think that I'd be the one leaving Earth first

With all the trouble causing, alcoholic at my worst

You used to tell me slow my roll before I hit the dirt

Ironically I think that God had got our fate reversed

And every now and then I drive alone up to your grave

And even though my faith is weak I get on knees and pray

Wherever you may be I hope it's in a better place

That you can finally rest in peace inside eternal grace

And let me be the one to tell you nothing is the same

A heart breaking conversation every holiday

The empty chair at the dinner table takes your place

The hollowness inside, I see it in your children's face

One day we all will be united on the other side

And all this pain and anguish will surely be cast aside

We'll have eternity to make up all that lost time

But until then, hold a place for me up in the sky

I know you really can't see but

This grief is tearing through me

It's left me like a house of cards

One breath you're gone

I can't move on

I'll hold on to your memory

You'll always be a part of me

I'll hold on to your memory

I'll hold on, I'll hold on, I'll hold on

I'll hold on

I'll hold on

I'll hold on

One breath you're gone

I can't move on

I know you really can't see but

This grief is tearing through me

It's left me like a house of cards

One breath you're gone

I can't move on

House of cards

House of cards

House of cards

I'll hold on