Find My Way

I know I always run from everything I love

It's 'cause I feel like I won't ever be enough

Maybe that's why I been pushin' you away

I wanna see if I matter enough for you to stay

I know it's selfish, and it's not the way that it should be

But I just like to know that someone's out there missing me

All my exes will tell you there ain't no fixing me

And that I'll become somebody that you wish you didn't meet

The love we have, I know you wish it dead

But you don't know how to kill it, so it lives instead

I have ways of getting in your head

So it doesn't matter what I do 'cause you'll forgive me in the end

But I'm trying to change, and it's kind of strange

But I hope you're still around when I find my way

And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly

But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me

But I'm trying to change, and it's kind of strange

But I hope you're still around when I find my way

And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly

But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me

I just want to let you know I cried tonight

Like, "how have I been like this my entire life?"

But if you grew up with my dad, then you were taught to run

Crazy because he's the one I've been trying to not become

How the fuck did I become my parents?

I look back at the shit I did to you, and I'm embarrassed

But it's something that growing up I witnessed on the daily

So now it doesn't phase me, 'cause I thought it was normal to be crazy

I'm sorry for what I did that night

I'm even more sorry it took this long to know that

That shit isn't right 'cause you and I were bound to marry

I gotta let go of my past

And that's something I don't know how to bury

But I'm trying to change, and it's kind of strange

But I hope you're still around when I find my way

And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly

But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me

But I'm trying to change, and it's kind of strange

But I hope you're still around when I find my way

And you're gonna see, it won't be suddenly

But I've been trying day and night, and that's enough for me