Still My Fault

I see your name, and I fall apart

Pretend I've healed, but it still breaks my heart

They say it's not on me, I did my best

But your silence still feels like a final test

Tried to move on, told myself a lie

But even now, I can't say goodbye

You were my first, and I still believe

That losing you was all because of me

They said, "Just talk, don't let it die"

But I was scared to speak, too scared to try

They say, "She doesn't hate you, don't be scared"

But she walks right by like I'm not even there

Still my fault, I carry the blame

Even when you forgave me, I feel the same

I can't see the hope my friends swear is true

I'll care forever, even if you never do

We talked a little, just enough to see

The kindness in you, what you mean to me

Smart and gentle, I knew it from the start

But I kept my feelings locked inside my heart

Then I confessed, you turned me down

So softly spoken, but it still tore me down

You laugh so quietly, like a secret unknown

And though you've grown warmer, I still feel alone

They said, "She doesn't hate you, she just grew"

But how do you grow out of someone who loved you?

They say, "It's not your fault, just let it slide"

But the guilt's a storm I still hold inside

Still my fault, I carry the blame

Even when you forgave me, I feel the same

I can't see the hope my friends swear is true

I'll care forever, even if you never do

You were my first, the one I can't replace

Even if I fade like a shadow in your space

You said, "It's okay", and I know you meant it

But my broken heart can't accept or forget it