Torn

Deep down I'm locked inside my emotions

I'm not perfect, but I'm going through the motions

I wanna be alone, but not lonely

And it's times like this where I need you to hold me

I'm complicated, sick of it

Living life for the thrill of it

Independent but I was dependent on you

Not gonna pretend it

I can't even lie, I got too much pride

Don't wanna open up my eyes

Don't wanna get butterflies

Don't want them to see me sweat, so I keep my walls up

Suffer in silence instead or I can pop one

Hoping others will stay away

Because my love is too pure

And you are not very sure

What you want and that's why I am torn

Between feeling less and still wanting more

Because my love is too pure

And you are not very sure

What you want and that's why I am torn

Between feeling less and still wanting more

Phone stay on do not disturb for your messages

But I still check them for the hell of it

I shouldn't have to wait until the sun falls

Wait until the night calls, sometimes I wish I could leave it all

But I know I am stronger than that

And I know I can't keep going back

Tried to get some closure, tried to make a truce

But I still ended up being used by you

You know I can make a fool out of you,

But I ain't gon do that cause I am bigger than you

Why would I fight someone when I know that they're gonna lose?

Can't give them my time no more, my happiness is overdue

I know, I know, it all takes time

Before, before you know it I'll be back just fine

Gotta let myself disconnect so I can reconnect

You lost all my respect after all what did you expect

Don't want them to see me sweat, so I keep my walls up

Suffer in silence instead or I can pop one

Hoping others will stay away

Because my love is too pure

And you are not very sure

What you want and that's why I am torn

Between feeling less and still wanting more

Because my love is too pure

And you are not very sure

What you want and that's why I am torn

Between feeling less and still wanting more