A Thousand Dreams

The lights are out but the candle's lit

I've got my razor blades

And my wrists are slit

I draw images with my blood

Sometimes suicidal

Sometimes something with love

But this message here you may not receive

Cause I'm conceived of these

Suppressed evil dreams

And it seems to me

What you call make believe

Is here for all to see

In its entirety

And I'll sleep til dawn

When I'm awake they're drawn

To my mind that's gone

I'll only go so long

Until I can't run

And my legs give out

And I'm stuck here paralyzed where I can't even make a shout

A muffled scream

Is all that's teasing me

I know you won't believe

The wicked things I've seen

And it's occurred to me

They're conjured up by thee

But it's supposedly

Watching over me

To know what's right

From what is always wrong

Like the stars at night

Are only shown so long

I can only try

A couple hundred times

Until there isn't a point

And all we hear is the noise

Of the silence raging falling down on us

The intermittent flash of the thoughts that cuss

And the ones that curse

The forgetting plush

The overbearing words

That begin to crush

I've accepted fate in this reality

That's crashing down on me

The twisted views to see

And I'm not alone

I'm not the only one

Though I was born with a thousand dreams

Now I'm down to none

I awake at night and I'm drenched in sweat

From the evil dreams that live in my head

I always seem to have these dreams

Wicked, twisted visions and a million screams

In the dead of night I try to fight

With what's wrong and right