Trepanation

This is hell

This pain

It's everywhere

In everything

It's too much

And I can't bare it any longer

A sickness

Riving inside of my head

Becoming more desperate

I've tried it all and nothing has availed

Gun to my forehead, very last option

I can't take it

I need relief

I, um, made a T shaped incision right here on my forehead, a horizontal and then a vertical. And I had a shield over my brow here so that there wasn't any blood dripping in my eyes to obscure my vision. Ok, so I, I pulled the flaps of skin back and inserted a fairly sharp pointed bit to get a pilot hole started in the skull bone. I used the, uh, method of a, uh, electrical powered flexible shaft drill. I went ahead through the first layer of bone into the spongy inner bone.'

I need to get through to the other side

So much blood has been spilled going

Deeper towards a solution

Such a tiny hole, piece of bone for peace of mind

Right through my skull, my last hope

I, uh, went ahead drilling and as, um, I was using the blunt drill, then the drilling got rather slow and the very bottom of the drill there broke through the bone and I could feel it start to give way. I withdrew the drill, the newly restored pulsation blasted that blood that accumulated up there into a spout coming out of my forehand and then I heard gurgling in my skull as the new equilibrium of brain blood volume and brain water adjusted itself.'

Drain me of impurities

Equalize my being

Resolve this crucible

Achieve balance within

Sustain my sanity

Dissolve the malady

Enlighten me

Make it all go away

All go away