Against The Wall

I feel so alone and I'm craving for affection

But I can't stand human interaction

I've got fear checking up on me on a daily basis

Like "Hey, BESTIE!!"

And I'm slowly losing the strength to daily face this

I'm shifting through thoughts like I'd wander on a wasteland

I need to have every reaction carefully planned beforehand

And my tongue became numb 'cause I always keep it bitten

I almost forgot I have a voice 'cause I hardly ever listen

I've put myself against the wall

I'm trying hard not to lose it all

My heart runs a race I'll never win

I'm so sick of living in between

The lineeees

The lineees

There's innocence in my eyes but maybe it's artificial

I aim for the natural just to end up superficial

I'm a control freak but I can't control my own anger

I wish I was determined but I was born in September...

I feel so stuck without any connecting wires

It's not easy being pulled apart by ambivalent desires

I survive on scenarios that I make up at night

They make me wanna give up before I even start the fight

I've put myself against the wall

I'm trying hard not to lose it all

My heart runs a race I'll never win

I'm so sick of living in between

The lineeees

The lineees

The lines