OPIUM AD SOMNUM

Perceiving the void

In it, I jump

Distorted thoughts inside my cranium

Making it harder to reflect

In this mess

That I created by myself

Mud to the legs

And it's holding me back in the obscure

I did it to myself

Denaturing all these emotions

I tear em out

Wow

I saw someone jumping from a building

A man that decided to use the rest of his life

To paint on on the ground

A message to the world

I thought it was very inspiring

And then I saw his face

I recognized myself

I lost all kind of strength

I stepped back

Fell into the mud

Slowly covered, panicking

Shutting down my eyes

I inhale

Never wanted nonsense just friends

This amends for my shortcomings

And let's play pretend

It gets fucked up in the rear view

Story teller in your ears too

Talk a lot and can't feel you

432 need peeled to

Fill the mirror with my fears

For long year after year

I quit shaking off the uh

I quit thinking when im here

Can't have far

Can't have near

When I'm numb and don't steer

Avoidant of my peers

Want revenge for the tears