Cold Heaven

Young bula

Cold hearts, warm hands That's how the night begins

She wore my guilt like a borrowed chain I wore her love like a bloodstain

She told me you're colder than December rain I told her that's the only way I'd stay sane

I kept her high just to feel low Every kiss had a shadow, every smile was for show

Told myself she'll never know

But she thought through it all and she let go

She called it love, I called it control She gave her all, I played a role

Told her I'd change, knowin' I won't Still begged her to stay, knowin' she won't

Welcome to my cold heaven Where angels fall and devils dance

You were light in my distortion But I let go of your hand

Now I'm trapped in my reflection All your tears still on my skin

You wanted warmth, I gave you weapons Now I'm lost where love begins

I loved her wrong but loud Built her throne then broke her crown

Watched her drown in the hurt I caused Played the victim when I was a fraud

Now she goes where I used to sleep Another man's name where mine used to be

She's healed and I'm still weak Still addicted to what I couldn't keep

If I could rewind I'd never let her stand alone in the dark

I'd hold her pain like holy art And love her past the wreck I start

But memories don't pick up the phone And guilt don't beg me to move on

So I just sit where dreams decay Burnin' slow just to fade away

Welcome to my cold heaven Where angels fall and devils dance

You were light in my distortion But I let go of your hand

Now I'm trapped in my reflection All your tears still on my skin

You wanted warmth, I gave you weapons Now I'm lost where love begins

Cold heaven

You were the last light in my hell

Young Bula, alone again