Hard To Hold On

I've been drunk on bad decisions

Lit my prayers like superstition

Ain't no saints in this skin I'm in

Just a man who can't outrun his sins

Mama said I was born for more

But I keep knockin' on the devil's door

I swear I try, but I still fall

Feelin' like I don't deserve love at all

It's hard to hold on when your hands are shakin

Hard to stand up when your soul feels vacant

I fake a smile so no one knows

But I'm breakin' down just so it don't show

God, I need a little light right now

'Cause I can't carry this pain somehow

I'm still here, but barely hangin' on

Yeah, it's hard, it's hard to hold on

Got a Bible in the glove box

But it's buried 'neath the pillbox

Try to talk to God, but I just choke

Ash on my shirt and hope gone up in smoke

I know I ain't no role model

Just a man with a past and an empty bottle

But I'd give it all just to feel some peace

Trade these demons in for a little relief

It's hard to hold on when your hands are shakin

Hard to stand up when your soul feels vacant

I fake a smile so no one knows

But I'm breakin' down just so it don't show

God, I need a little light right now

'Cause I can't carry this pain somehow

I'm still here, but barely hangin' on

Yeah, it's hard, it's hard to hold on

They see the tattoos and the fight

Don't see the battles every night

I ain't perfect, I'm just tryin

Holdin' back the sound of cryin

It's hard to hold on when your hands are shakin

Hard to stand up when your soul feels vacant

I fake a smile so no one knows

But I'm breakin' down just so it don't show

God, I need a little light right now

'Cause I can't carry this pain somehow

I'm still here, but barely hangin' on

Yeah, it's hard, it's hard to hold on