Jacob

Jacob almost died last night

He ate something that he can't have

Flared up in the bathroom, said "I can't pay for an ambulance"

But thank god for Cole's car and workman's comp

'Cause we were at a party for our service job

Cole hates being in hospitals

I hate what I don't know

Jake's mom came to meet him

And we went home

I've always been a fixer, but never a healer

I like being good at things out of convenience

I never learned how to talk down somebody scared

So I kept it quiet in the urgent care

I cried on the way home, dizzy & sober

It didn't even hit me 'til it was over

That I had never spoke to the kid too much

But when we walked out, he was tearing up

I hate feeling helpless

I hate what I don't know

I feel less empathetic

When I'm alone

I let go of my body

When I start to sense a threat

So I let go in that waiting room

Just glad he wasn't dead

Jacob almost died last night

He ate something that he can't have

And I called my family for the first time in a minute