Switch Flipped Again

Flash of light behind my eyes

Pulse jumps high, thoughts multiply

The world shifts colors without consent

I feel the tilt before it's sent

I haven't slept in three whole nights

But everything feels sharp and bright

My pulse is racing marathons, my brain's a stage with all lights on

Ideas spark like firecrackers, laughter hits like thunderclappers

I talk too fast, my skin's too tight, I feel like God

And then I might... fall

I feel the gasoline in me, buzzing loud electrically

Every breath a spark again

The switch flipped again

And I'm not the same as I was then

I rise too fast, I fall too far

I burn in place like a broken star

The switch flipped again

I swear I felt my soul unhinge

A flash of gold, a crash of pain

Then I'm someone else

Or am I sane?

Take the medicine, let the wave crash through

Now you're quieted down to a shadow of you

Going under, trying to be normal

So far detached, it feels informal

There's fire in my veins, I know it's my brain

I'm about to tip into something crazy

Right now, nothing feels sincere

You say I'm fine, you got no idea

You're not taking this seriously here

The switch flipped again

I can't predict where the edges bend

Up so high, I scrape the sun

Then crash so low, I come, come undone

Then the colors drain without a sound

Everything bright turns upside down

My limbs go heavy, brain goes underground

Breath goes thin and I cave into the dark within

My thoughts feel weighted sharp and slow

A drowning where the water won't flow

What felt like wings was just a flare

Now I'm crawling through poisoned air

The spark is out the gold turns rust

My confidence decays to dust

The silence wins again

The switch flipped again

But now it burns beneath my skin

It lights me up just to watch me bend

Drags me high just to drop me again

The switch flipped again

Laughing like a maniac twin

I brace myself

But I can't defend

From the firestorm

It traps me in

Too alive then not at all

Standing tall, then hugging walls

Laughing loud at nothing real

Then choking on the things I feel

It rewires joy into a dare

Turns love electric in the air

Paints my world in manic gold

Then leaves me burnt, shaking, cold

Hands won't stop, mind won't slow

High and low in the same echo

I'm pacing holes into the floor

A hurricane in human form

Smiles stretched wide like a cracking mask

Crying in jokes, I didn't ask

Hope combusts into a spark

Bright at first then bites the dark

The switch flipped again

Close your eyes

Count to ten

The sky explodes

The ground caves in

I lose myself where I begin

The switch flipped again

I feel the quake beneath my grin

Sometimes I fight, sometimes I give in

But it always says, let's spin again

And when the blaze is gone, I'm left with embers

Trying to piece together

A self that never remembers