Judge In My Head

There's a voice beneath my skin

It tells me where I should have been

Every time I start to shine

It whispers softly stay in line

I've worn too many borrowed names

Afraid they'd see my secret shame

There's a judge in my head

He never sleeps he never fades

He turns my touch to fear instead

And hides my heart behind a blade

Still I long to be seen

Without disguise without routine

To love myself serene

My father's shadow haunts my stare

That quiet pride that distant glare

He taught me strength but not to feel

Now tenderness is what I heal

I tremble when I show my truth

But silence holds the sweetest proof

There's a judge in my head

He measures worth by what I lack

But every scar every word unsaid

Now gently calls my power back

I'm learning slow

To let forgiveness grow

No savior no disguise

Just stillness opening my eyes

I fall apart to be alive

The judge inside begins to fade

His voice dissolves his rules decay

I breathe I stay

And finally I'm okay