Under The Smile

Cameras on I spin a line make the danger look easy

Load a joke like a golden ring when the silence gets greasy

Blue blur on a billboard sky chase the noise till it is quiet

If I slow down the heart I hide starts a thunder riot

I keep the world from seeing what it should not see

But every rescue leaves a crack in me

I am not always okay I just run till fear lets go

I am more than a grin I am a heartbeat learning slow

If I fall on the way would you still call my name

I do not need to outrun the dark to carry the flame

Under the smile I am finally telling the truth tonight

Crowds fade out the cheers go home and the city stops burning

All that is left is the weight I hold and the engine churning

I wear the light so my friends do not see where the shadows start

I got a map of little hurts folded up in my heart

I fix the world but sometimes I cannot fix me

So I am learning how to breathe and be

I am not always okay I just run till fear lets go

I am more than a grin I am a heartbeat learning slow

If I fall on the way would you still call my name

I do not need to outrun the dark to carry the flame

Under the smile I am finally telling the truth tonight

To the rival who taught me standing still can be brave

To the friends who hold the line when I do not know how to save

I can be loud I can be small I can ask for a hand

I am still me if I am not fast I am enough where I stand

Take the mask down let the rush fade

Let the boy breathe beneath the arcade

I am not always okay but I will not run from the rain

I am more than a legend I am a heart that feels the strain

If I fall on the way will you stand in my light

I do not need to be lightning to survive the night

Under the smile I am finally telling the truth tonight

When I run again it is not to hide what is wrong

It is just the way my open heart moves on