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In retrospect, I've never been content
A retromantic
Ever present tension
For the present tense
Unprecedented disdain
For new things
Convincing myself that the olden days
Were the golden ages, wasting precious time
It's almost like I have been chasing
Tomorrow's memory
Never getting what every moment is giving me
Remembering self has rendered me useless
Putting no stock in the future
Cause I am used to chasing the highs
And Glorying lows
Lemme bask in the past and into the glow I go
And I'm gone
I'm long gone
Well can I change?
I don't think so
Still chasing after after
Glows
Can I change?
I just don't know
No
After
Glow
Maybe I just can't handle existence
When you're poor
Looking forward
Really seems to be senseless
There's a horror in
Not knowing if you'll eat
So you find comfort in
Reminiscing on the memories
Hard on myself
Heart on my sleeve
That is just part of the hell
Part of me is reaching out to the people
I know it was always much better to leave
That is just something that has always been holding me back
People that should have been scrapped
I'm keeping around
Simply because
We both go back
We'd go back in a heartbeat
Kinda offbeat
How the days that we thought to be
The hardest are the very ones that we look back with fondness
Is the brain even honest?
No matter how solemn it seemed
How often the darkness would creep
Those are the times we visit inside of our minds
Right before we drift into sleep
I get obsessive
It is impressive if I can sit still for a second