Ashes On The Console

Truck's still warm but the night's gone cold

Ashtray full and the radio low

I light one up just to kill some time

Burns my throat but it clears my mind

Your hoodie's still on the backseat floor

Smells like smoke and a little bit more

I tell myself I should clean this mess

But I don't touch shit, I just sit and stare

Been running from sleep

Been staying awake

If I don't slow down

I don't gotta think

I leave ashes on the console

Bottle rattling every mile

Trying to wear you out my memory

But it don't work at all tonight

I don't miss you, I miss who I was

Back when I didn't need all this noise

Yeah I keep drinking like it helps

But it just keeps you close

Gas station lights at two fifteen

Same clerk, same look, same routine

He don't ask, he just rings it up

Knows real well what's in that cup

I scroll your name, don't hit send

Put the phone face down again

Every road out of this town

Still somehow circles back around

I ain't looking for peace

I ain't trying to heal

Just need something loud

So I don't feel

I leave ashes on the console

Bottle rattling every mile

Trying to wear you out my memory

But it don't work at all tonight

I don't miss you, I miss who I was

Back when I didn't need all this noise

Yeah I keep drinking like it helps

But it just keeps you close

Ashes on the console

Radio low

Ashes on the console