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Golden-haired youth, now graying at the roots
Swallowed dreams in secondhand suits
Clocked in at jobs we hate, bills past due
Smile on the outside i am not like you
But that ain't love, just survival wrapped in text
I said I really will
But I ain't got much left
It fell but didn't break, just bent outta place
And I learned sometimes healing leaves no trace
I really will heal, forgive, let go
But damn, mom still don't know the pain I don't show
Dad's voice still echoes, even when he ain't near
Taught me strength, but not how to cry without fear
We talk, but not really more weather than truth
More "how was your day" than "what broke you in youth"
Still love them though in the way broken kids do
From a distance, through windows, wishing they knew
We ain't built for this, but we still go
Hearts heavy like bricks, but we don't show
Played the game blind, learned the rules slow
Lost a lot of love, but I won't fold
Yeah, they told me time heals, but it don't feel
Like it's moving at all, wounds still real
I just hold it all in, let the hurt flow
Pray for peace, but I'm living in a war zone
It fell but didn't break like my sense of home
Just learned to carry loneliness like a phone
She ain't breaking shi she just tired of pretending
Tired of softening her rage for the world's comfort-ending
But she don't believe it some nights
Mirror talk ain't medicine when the pain bites
But then... someone texts "you good?"
And it hits deeper than any self-help ever could
Brushstrokes and boundaries
Blurred like memory
Still bleeding ink 'cause the past won't let me
"W for" ain't just guns it's bills, regret
It's trying to forgive what you can't forget
Now we talk... sometimes
But I still miss riding bikes at dusk
No timelines. No shame. No rush
Just freedom and dusty hands full of wonder
We're all playing this game for the first time
Some lose early, some just fake their climb
If I fall, let it be seen, let it be real
If I rise, let it be because I finally feel
Stabbin up
Bitches who
Broke me and
Regret it, you
Gotta go
Get it, go
Get it, my
Brotha tho
Good, and
All of a sudden
They gonna
Stab and
They want your
Blood in
Yuh
World went dim
Hope got thin
Soul went numb
Sinkin in
Heart on freeze
No more kin
Trust no blood
Lie for win
Mama cry
I just lied
Said I'm fine
But I died
Back in bed
Just say that
No one is better
I know
And i know that your trust aint there
So fuck it
I know that your care aint there
So fuck it
And the one who cares for you, go and fuck him
Cuz with that golden hair
And that type of care
You know it aint fair
To trust her all in
With that evil ass grin
Asking how you been
And thinking she'll win
And whoever or whatever you got right now
You know it aint me and I'm glad and you're glad too
You had to blow this shit
Thats what you do
So fuck him
And fuck her
But mostly fuck you too
Im gone
And if you're still here after the friends who left
After the nights you screamed into pillows
After the childhood you never got to finish
You already won
You're still in the game
You're still playing
For the first time