whoami

It hits my shoulders, I don't even flinch

Steam rises like ghosts from a film I'm not in

I stare at the mirror, but the face looks thin

Like a stranger I've met but I can't let in

All these voices in the drain sound like prayers

But they slip down, no one's there

I'm a name on a note I forgot to sign

Lost in a body that isn't mine

Hands go numb, my breath turns glass

Days crawl slow, but the years move fast

I try to wake up, but I'm under ice

Wearing my life like a borrowed disguise

I can't feel the water, can't feel the light

Shadows in the shower whisper at night

I don't know the stranger staring back at me

I'm a ghost of the person I used to be

I can't feel the water, can't feel the fire

My heart's on mute, my mind's a wire

This isn't me — or maybe it is

A hollow echo where my name once lived

Skin on skin feels like plastic wrap

Thoughts drip down in a silent trap

Friends call my name, but it fades like mist

Every word a note from a song I missed

I dress like myself, but the seams don't fit

I laugh at jokes, but I'm not in it

Every heartbeat's just a code to crack

I reach for me but I don't reach back

If I pour the ocean over my head

Will it wake the living or drown the dead?

If I whisper my name into the steam

Will I wake from this or just stay in the dream?

I can't feel the water, can't feel the light

Shadows in the shower whisper at night

I don't know the stranger staring back at me

I'm a ghost of the person I used to be

I can't feel the water, can't feel the fire

My heart's on mute, my mind's a wire

Somebody tell me if I'm still inside

Or just a shape in a borrowed life