Who Cleared The Air?

We dont fight

We let that shit rot

We let it live with us

We dont argue we just stall it out

Let the silence talk until it loud

You read my face like subtitles

I dodge truth like its optional

Phone face down glass half full

I rehearse lies that sound harmless

You say talk I say later

Then disappear inside the apartment

I dont slam doors I fade slow

Thats my version of control

Learned to survive emotional winters

Never taught how to console

I dont yell I calcify

Turn emotions into pride

You call that me being cold

I call that staying alive

I been trained to keep it moving

Never sit inside the mess

If I dont name it it dont hurt

Thats the lie I live with

We never clear the air we just breathe it

Say we fine but dont fucking mean it

Let the smoke do the talking

I stay quiet you feel it

Love stay heavy still we wear it

Every night we inherit

Damn shadows in the mirror

We never clear the air

You call space being mature

I call it quiet abandonment

You dont cheat you detach

Like thats somehow advancement

I dont scream I internalize

Thats why I stay composed

I have arguments alone

You avoid them in real time

I can tell when you lying

By how calm your voice get

You dont raise it you numb it

Like you scared of the effect

I carry tension in my chest

You disperse it in the haze

I ask questions for clarity

You answer sideways then fade

I learned how to love transparently

You learned to manage guilt

Thats why we keep surviving

But never rebuild

I been holding space for growth

While you been holding distance

Calling silence peace

Dont make it forgiveness

We never clear the air we just breathe it

Say we fine but dont fucking mean it

Let the smoke do the talking

I stay quiet you feel it

Love stay heavy still we wear it

Every night we inherit

Damn shadows in the mirror

We never clear the air

I dont know how to start this right

I freeze when it get too real

I dont need perfect words

I need you to feel

I thought time would soften it

Time just taught me how to wait

I dont mean to shut you out

But you do every day

I stay quiet to keep control

I speak up just to be seen

I call it keeping the peace

I call it killing me

Windows closed

Smoke still in the room

Say well talk

Never do

Same damn night

Same damn tone

Damn shadows

In our home

We never clear the air we just breathe it

Say we good but dont believe it

Every love leave residue

Damn shadows thats the truth

We never clear the air we just survive it

Let it sit until it violent

If we never say it out loud

It still follows us around

Open the window

Or live in it

Yeah