You loved the idea of me

You loved my smile when it didn't break

My strength when it was easy to fake

You held my hand but not my fear

You liked me best when I stayed unclear

You saw the parts that shined in the light

But turned away when it got real at night

You loved the idea of me

Not the scars, not the nights I bleed

You loved who I pretended to be

But never the truth inside of me

You loved the idea of me

Not the weight of my honesty

You wanted calm, you wanted control

Someone simple you could hold

But I was deeper than you knew

And depth was something you couldn't do

You wanted love without the pain

A perfect picture in a perfect frame

You loved the idea of me

Not the scars, not the nights I bleed

You loved who I pretended to be

But never the truth inside of me

You loved the idea of me

Not the weight of my honesty

I tried to shrink so you'd stay

Cut my edges, hid my pain

But love should see the whole damn thing

Not just the parts that make it easy

You loved the idea of me

But real love wants reality

I won't apologize for being deep

Or asking you to truly see

You loved the idea of me

Now I love the truth of me