Why Can't I Have What I Want Any Time That I Want?

When will time erase this stupid smile from my face?

I still feel you in my veins

Pure and refined, while I raged

Questions are of no consequence

Humiliations are easily subsumed in oblivion and indifference

With a love that is malignant and true

Wrong, wrong, wrong

Wrong, wrong, wrong

I am wrong in this skin

But that's where my need for you begins

With your nails through my hands

On the hill that I till

On the cross that I built

Crying for more, more, more

Give me more, give me more

I'm your supplicant, I'm your whore

I'm unconscious on the floor

But my hand is reaching for your door

There's a shadow of your taste

And the blood rush in my gut

No, it's never, never enough

Why would I ever give you up?

Lost, lost, lost

Now I want to pay the cost

I don't care, just erase

Every memory, every trace

Let me run through the ruins

From the failure and regret

Just open up my mouth

And pour your tongue into my head

All gone, gone, gone

I am lost without your breath

Now my teeth are cracked and red

I am begging at the foot of your bed

Give me one more taste of death

Why can't I have what I want

Any time that I want?

Why can't I have what I want

Any time that I want?