Will I Ever Love?

Every choice I made was wrong, and

Souls who loved me were left broken

Guess I'll pay for this 'til the end of days

I won and lost and calculated

Why who I liked I never dated

And broke my head deriving formula

But will I ever love?

Feel it inside my heart?

All that I do is

Fake it all again, fake it all again, boring

Reckoning again, reckoning again, for it

How do I make this vicious cycle end?

Convinced myself to like the beds I shared

While crying, going numb and lying bare

I did it all for them and more

With all my body getting sore

How could I be so brutal to myself?

Will I ever love?

Feel it inside my heart?

All that I do is fake it all again, fake it all again, boring

Reckoning again, reckoning again, for it

How do I make this vicious cycle end?

Will we have kids and marry, hun?

I'd like to, but you're not the one

I wanna keep you

You cage and treat me wrong

You are a dream girl

You made up all along

Maybe we met to end alone

All alone

Born to be alone, born to be alone

Earned it

Born to be alone, born to be alone

Worth it

How do I make this vicious cycle end?