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Hate when I get in my own head

'Cause I know I'm overthinking

You know what

Ima just let this play out

See if I can clear my mind a lil' bit

I don't know

I'm a little solitary, wasn't used to having friends

They say I'm cool but the motive behind the smiles I couldn't comprehend

I thought about it plenty, like why pretend

Just go and ask for what you want, I'll probably let you have it in the end

Yes man I was a yes man, I couldn't tell em

Yes I mean ye- wait, N-O yes, hold on

If I say the other word I could offend them

And then again standing by myself waving so long

I tend to break and never bend

Can't handle the pressure of thinking how to make amends

So I'm here for any talks or functions I can attend

And they'll see it's the reliability they can commend but the problem is

I never reach out

No network, hardly approach, don't even speak loud

I seem secure, clear and stable yet I leak doubt

Asking myself how the fuck I'm supposed to be proud

My confidence only yay high

I spent my whole life rejecting my gay pride

Let a lot of men and women fall by the wayside

Waiting for a mind I can invigorate and make a bride

Oblivious to all the signs no matter how blatant

Start every conversation off with "please be patient"

"I tend to talk a bit slow and I'm mentally latent"

To say I got some screws loose is a literal statement

A schizophrenic childhood gave me a couple associates

I can speak to them instead cause people are the phoniest

Judge me for the lack of emotion my face shows

And just assume I'm either heartless as fuck or I'm on opiates

My other half checking in by the hour

On the hour every hour, I hate it but I allow her

Cause she cares and would like to do everything in her power

To ensure my state of mind don't completely turn sour man

Part of the pain is me believing

Anything I say or do has no purpose nor meaning

And thus, I'm constantly wondering why I'm breathing