A Soreness so Familiar It Soon Becomes Unquestioned

The choice between attack or to apologize

I find contrived white lies so no more anger will arise

This harmony isn't mutual but maybe I am condescending

Allowing qualms that cause alarm to all remain unmentioned

I try and calm you down and I just coax you into smoking

So you can share my numbness and assume I'm only joking

When I sass you with a smile, I see you didn't notice

The quiver in my voice, the fact my bow is broken

I had a nosebleed when I woke up then I didn't go to work

I find my problems are all first world but still I'm feeling hurt

Well seasoned perspective it makes me hate myself

I can complain of my sadness but I have more than someone else

Am I just a spoiled brat who taught themselves how to cry,

Who's so preconditioned now all their emotions are a lie?

I close my eyes and look inside, no surprise I find nothing

It's people who shape each other and people are disgusting

'At least' isn't helping

'At least' isn't helping