Lighthouse

I died but I'm still here

The taste of everything disappeared

I lay in bed and count the ceiling

That's all I have the strength to feel

You're my lighthouse

But I'm too tired to swim

You're so close

But I can't let you in

And it's quiet

God it's quiet

Drowning doesn't sound

The way I thought it did

I sleep to make the hours smaller

I wake up and the weight's the same

They sit beside me, hold my fingers

But my body doesn't know their names

You're my lighthouse

But the water's in my lungs

You speak love

But it sounds like a foreign tongue

And it's lonely

God it's lonely

Dying right in front of

Everyone I love

I mourn myself

While I'm still breathing

Flowers for a boy

Who hasn't left

But maybe that's the thing

Maybe that's the proof

If I can grieve

Then I still feel

And if I feel

I'm not gone yet

Not gone yet

Not gone yet

Not gone yet