Outcast

When I think about the past of my life and all I did on my own

All the years that I was struggling

Day and night on the block was my home

See I'm an outcast

It's been a long time coming, I'm still here, I'm still breathing

I spent a long time running, through each season to season

I'm your prime example of you can't do it, so give it up

I'm your prime example cause I've been through it, so listen up

It was deeper than just the music and drug abusing

It's about your life and how you use it

The road you're choosing, determines your every step and movement

Lord knows I've tried, knows I'm defined

It's hard to run a race, I know I'm behind it

Know that I'm grinding, look at life through my eyes

It ain't as easy as it looks, nobody

Knows the blood and tears that it took

Years of expecting turned to aggression, that turned to obsession

Turned to depression, through all that

You think I learned all my lessons

I ain't even scratching the surface, it ain't even half way

It ain't even about the bitches, nor the money I've made

In 50 years when I look back on my past

All that I want is for both of my daughters to be proud of their dad

What else do I have?

When I think about the past of my life and all I did on my own

All the years that I was struggling

Day and night on the block was my home

All that I wanted was a chance to be

Accepted like you, so tell me if I'm wrong

I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone

Tell me you feel me, but I never thought I would really

Be the man to grow up from nothing

To the one that's sitting before you

See I'm an outcast

Now mama always said that it'd be worth it

Through all the pain and suffering

Through all the rain and hurting

Nobody's perfect, I'm certain that if I

Left this earth today they would miss me

But at my funeral, how long would the list be before I'm history

An only child, with no brothers or sisters

So often, me and mama would pack up the

Charts and moving often is exhausting

Back and forth in them section 8 apartments

There's only so much you can take before it breaks your conscience

Changes to nonsense, there's been times in life when I felt flawless

I have to say those were the times my ears were hearing whispers

From other angels, taking actions from other angles

It's always a gamble, always a handful

I was raised to show the game what I stand for

And can't nobody take this moment from you

There's nowhere to run to, so force them to

Make the decision to hate you or love you

And that's the moment that your fate comes to a crossroad

And God knows, I've had my share of

Choices to make with obstacles off-road

When I think about the past of my life and all I did on my own

All the years that I was struggling

Day and night on the block was my home

All that I wanted was a chance to be

Accepted like you, so tell me if I'm wrong

I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone

Tell me you feel me, but I never thought I would really

Be the man to grow up from nothing

To the one that's sitting before you

See I'm an outcast

With every piece of sand that's in my hourglass

And with every breath I take, another hour pass

I tell myself it don't matter, I'll let them chitter chatter

Live with the laughter, get what I'm after

Turn the page in my book, it's another chapter

I'm after a bigger dream, just to capture the bigger things

That have actually came between all the people that disagree

With the typical human being that never makes up excuses

But takes the breaks and heartaches

The way that he slaves to make 2 cents

He's a nuisance, but they still follow his shoe prints

Until the day that he chooses to break

Away from the pack and the past is useless

Give it everything you got, never settle for less again

And they told me while growing up that success is the best revenge

And I'm blessed to have walked the broken road from student to teacher

Cause when it finally evens out and

You're through it, it's much sweeter

I will never take it for granted, never outlashed, but outlast

The struggles that have now passed, label me as an outcast

When I think about the past of my life and all I did on my own

All the years that I was struggling

Day and night on the block was my home

All that I wanted was a chance to be

Accepted like you, so tell me if I'm wrong

I just want to do it before it's over and life's gone

Tell me you feel me, but I never thought I would really

Be the man to grow up from nothing

To the one that's sitting before you

See I'm an outcast