FEEL A THING

We didn't close the houses behind the-

I lost my phone today, but the funny thing is I wasn't mad

'Cause I told myself, the other day I'm sick of reading those words we had

You used to tell me that I checked the time too much

But I've always been impatient

But now you're scrolling through my pages until your battery is all dead

You'll be okay

And you'll be just fine

But what hurts you most

Is that I threw it all away

I hope you know this just ain't easy for me

So please, forgive me that I told myself that I didn't care at all

I hope you see, this all still kills me slowly

And so I'm sorry that I tell my friends that I still don't feel a thing

I feel a thing

Maybe I should have told my friends that I'm still hurt

Honestly, in these plane seats is the only place I feel worth

You told me I couldn't care less, but I swear to you that I had peace

But as the weeks kept moving on, I started seeing I got more weak

You showed up in my city, from time to time, and I saw ya

And I won't lie, 'cause I felt regret, but I thank God I didn't call ya

I thank God that I moved on, but it's clear to me that you didn't

You moved down to ATL when the pain got to your limit

I had to get home and see my family just to get my head straight

In New York, feelin' all alone 'cause I couldn't clear my headspace

You acted like I played a game and I said things I didn't feel

But just because my feelings changed doesn't mean they weren't real

I wonder if

You'll be okay

And you'll be just fine

But what hurts you most

Is that I threw it all away

I hope you know this just ain't easy for me

So please, forgive me that I told myself that I didn't care at all

I hope you see, this all still kills me slowly

And so I'm sorry that I tell my friends that I still don't feel a thing

I feel a thing

I need you to be okay

To be alright

I know it feels like it's all coming down

But I need you to be okay