TEST ME

1 man, 1 car

2 poles in the lot

3 spots bled my mind

4 lies, I was blind

1 man, 1 sign

2 lives that I got

3 lines I crossed

No more, my God

I'm tired, I've cried, I've tried

To forgive myself and all the ones that left me

Man, I could tell he was trying to test me

I pray my health stays away from deadly

I pray that hell, I never see, don't let me

If he meant me well, then why the hell would he press me?

What I'd never tell, I do my best at forgetting

I used to think I ain't deserve to be saved

I had done some things I never wanted to say

I would try to drink sometimes to numb the pain

And it would never work, so I'm just stuck in my ways

Now, I find pleasure in hurt

God, I'm a man of my word

Know I'm a sinner since birth

But, I don't sin in the church

I love my sister, it hurts to know she seen me at worst

To see me down that bad, at least it wasn't a hearse

And as my Momma said, I been had truth in my heart

My wretched soul, I bled, with all the bruises and scars

So if you want me dead, then aim for the heart

And prove I'm here to stay 'cause you ain't all that hard

A miracle if I've ever seen

My spirit bound to be heavenly

I almost couldn't do anything

I almost went and lost everything

How I avoid to keep death from me?

How I'm gon' crash and hit 70?

Back in July, how unsure was me?

I got the sign most don't get to see

1 man, 1 car

2 poles in the lot

3 spots bled my mind

4 lies, I was blind

1 man, 1 sign

2 lives that I got

3 lines I crossed

No more, my God