shards of glass

In my suicide note I wrote

That if any motherfuckers want smoke I'd choke

I stay fucked up

I'm so hung up

On the fact I ain't shit

But a fuck up

All my friends have overdosed

Even though I ain't there yet, bitch I'm close

In the meantime

I'll stay locked in my room

Away from sunshine

I take cover in a substance

I hate the taste

Down it like its nothing

How many hits can I lick before I tap out?

How many drinks can I sip before I black out?

Imma test my limit for the last time

Please stay with me on the hotline

I'll call u back when I feel alright

But tomorrow never comes

A life is finite

I can't stop takin' hella pills

But I'm not addicted

I just do it for the thrill

Acid tabs sitting on my tongue

But don't worry 'bout a thing

I just do it for fun

Glassed eyes in the mirror

Lookin' at myself

Thinkin' 'bout why the fuck I do this to my health

Paranoia got me grabbin' shrooms off my shelf

Try to stop me

I cant let you bitch

So go to hell

I feel nothing

To feel something

But im a fucking slave to the chemicals

I've been

Straight huffing

I wake up in panic attacks from my dreams so

Take my mind away

My eyes fell down the drain

These tear drops act as rain

Try to flush away, rinse away my pain

I take cover in a substance

I hate the taste

Down it like its nothing

How many hits can I lick before I tap out?

How many

Drinks can I sip before I black out?

Imma test my limit for the last time

Please stay with me on the hotline

I'll call u back when I feel alright

But tomorrow never comes

A life is finite