Faithless

Yeah...

I used to fold my hands and close my eyes.

Now that closet full of suits got stains I can't disguise.

Used to whisper "Amen," now it's just air in the room,

Echoes in the dark like they haunted by doom.

Ain't no hallelujahs in a city built on sin,

Just angels with they wings clipped, tryna breathe again.

Mama red me psalms before I even learned to write,

But the preacher had a temper that he hid behind the light.

"God is love," he said - while the belt swung tight,

And I learned early faith don't always mean right.

They told me "Keep prayin', He'll answer in time,"

But every prayer I sent came back unsigned.

I watched the holy turn hollow, the good ones break,

And I wondered if faith was just another heartbreak.

I was raised in pews, but my knees turned cold,

Talkin' to a silence that never took hold.

They said "He never leaves you," but it felt like a lie,

'Cause I been screamin' to the heavens, only echoes reply.

I wanna believe again...

But heaven don't hear me.

The streets so cold and the blood right near me.

How can I pray when the world's so cruel,

When kids die young and the killers stay cool?

I wanna believe again...

But I'm lost in the pain.

If God's still here, then He's hidin' in the rain.

I'm tryna find my way back, but I can't see through the red...

I'm so lost, yeah... I'm so lost.

I seen faith get sold for a dollar and a view,

Church packed on Sundays, but no love follow-through.

They say "turn the other cheek," but both of mine bruised,

And I'm tired of pretending that I ain't confused.

If holy water's real, why the blood don't rinse?

Why we bury kids for the color of their skin?

I been talkin' to the ceiling till my voice run thin,

Beggin' for a reason to let the light back in.

They say "He got a plan," but damn, I can't see it,

I'm tryna hold faith but trauma make me bleed it.

Every time I get close, I get dragged by the past,