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Yeah
Sometimes I just gotta ask myself
Uh (Mercy Cash)
Sitting down in this cold room wondering what I'm gone do
How did I get stuck here living a life I ain't want to
But I gotta keep myself strong for the family back home too
'Cause they gone know what I've been doing and not know what I'm going through
They look at me and they ask me how everything is going?
I'm looking right back at them and saying everything is fine
And everybody think I'm happy 'cause of all the smiles I'm showing
But they don't even know that what I'm saying is a lie
Man they can't even see the pain I hide behind my eyes
They wouldn't even fathom all the thoughts I had inside
And I tend to make the right decision in the nick of time
That's 'cause Jesus Christ is the only reason my head is still on right
Are you happy with the life that you live
Are you happy with the sacrifice that you give
Tell me are you happy with the way you live your life
Saying that you all good when you know that that's a lie
Now honestly I don't know a lot
People say I'm smart but I know I'm not
But I had school so I had to do what I had to do to leave the spot
That first semester I failed bad got an F in every single category
And my well being had started leaving and nigga that ain't even half the story
It was one night in my dorm room when I couldn't move and my hands was shaking
My body felt like it was being possessed by the red hands of Satan
My heads aching, my eyes draping, my heart beat just keep racing
I lay in bed then I turn around and next thing you know I'm hyperventilating
I was so scared what was going on 'cause honestly I had no clue
I was suffering in silence 'cause nobody else had knew
Then I calmed down and got back up now I'm thinking bout am I screwed now
But I shrugged it off and got back to work 'cause that's how niggas let it all out
Are you happy with the life that you live
Are you happy with the sacrifice that you give
Tell me are you happy with the way you live your life
Saying that you all good when you know that that's a lie